“Part of the process of beginning anew, or changing directions is to know where you want to go. I know this sounds simplistic and easy, but this is one of the most difficult of choices to make with clarity.”
~ Byron Pulsifer, May Is Not Just For Flowers
Following the end of my last long term relationship, I was forced to face past demons…to get help for the black dog suffocating me…whilst the loss attached to a relationship ending was incredibly painful at the time, it also allowed me to finally be who I am.
I had been deeply lost…a shadow of who I am now. It has not been an easy road…some of that attributed to poor decisions as well as living with depression, where some days just getting out of bed was an achievement. In 2012 I was very unsettled. I didn’t know whether I wanted to stay in NZ or move to Aus. The lack of focus in my business cost me financially…I was disconnected as far as that goes but started to learn who I was spiritually. Many lessons followed…both of the heart as well as the head.
2013 I had slipped back into a depressive cycle…brought on by my financial position primarily. It was a horrible year as far as cash flow went…ultimately I sold my home before I was forced too…best decision ever & I am finally turning a corner on that front.
During those 2.5 years I met some amazing people…many whom remain close to my heart. A few more lessons finally learnt…and of course clarity in abundance; becoming “Pete” once again…I wake up smiling for each new day…still the usual stresses of work and dollars…overall though I have an inner peace quite unlike anything I have experienced. I have grown exponentially. I have met many beautiful souls & feel privileged to count them as friends…also the friendships made via FB…deep connections with so many even though we have not met in the flesh…humbling to be so blessed. My “life’s purpose” has become clearer & my more recent decisions have placed me in the ideal position to see it to fruition.
Watch this space!